Here I am. Checking back in. One of the best things about this move has been my work BFF also made the move to St. Louis and the new company. So I know one person, well two if you include my former / new boss. Having another person going through the same thing has been so nice.
I’m just going to come right out and say it. I HATE being the new person. And yet everyone at some point in their life has experienced being the new person in some way, shape, or form.
I don’t like not knowing where I am going or what I should be doing. There are times I really wish I hadn’t made this decision and was stuck back at in my comfortable rut. There are feelings inadequacy that plague me daily regarding the job. I really wonder if I’ve bitten off more than I can chew. I didn’t necessarily want the promotion that came with this job, but was convinced I could handle it.
What doesn’t help is that I probably haven’t had a decent night’s sleep in about a bazillion years!! (Remember how I like to exaggerate? 🙂 ) I came off probably the worst two weeks of work in recent memory and then hit the ground running. Add in the fact I’m still getting over bronchitis of some sort and its no wonder I’m feeling so completely overwhelmed. It all adds up to one giant pity party for me.
But before we get dragged deeper into my self-pity, let’s look at the good news column. My car arrived!! Yay!! I feel so much better driving in my own car. I’ve also been able to drive to and from work without the aid of a GPS! Double yay!! I got my haircut this weekend. There is something so refreshing about newly cut hair. I also had a massive shopping spree at Target (and other stores) and I’m slowly putting my apartment together (only to move again, but let’s not go there yet).
I’m trying to convince myself to take it hour by hour, day by day, and soon week by week. At this point next year, I am sure I will look back and marvel at how fast time flew by.