This post has been a long time in coming. I have probably written it my head 100 times but have never wanted to actually put it down until it was a reality. It is no secret I haven’t been happy (more so on the job front) since I moved to St Louis. I’ve been working a ridiculous amount, gained weight, and gotten slower (even though the number of races I participate in have increased). I’ve gone from a fairly happy person to one who is struggling with bitterness and anger. And while I don’t believe I’ve become an angry, bitter person, there is a definite edge that wasn’t there before.
I came here with such hopes of breaking out of a rut, of trying something new. Pretty early on I realized this was not going to happen. No, instead I was sinking deeper and deeper into a new rut. I was working more than I ever had before with little to no breaks, in a negative environment. Weekends? Forget about it. Unless I was out of town. I wasn’t meeting people (unless you count people at work). I could have been anywhere, I wasn’t exploring my new city.
I shy away from saying the decision to come here was a mistake because I believe any situation you can learn from adds to you, rather than subtracts.
What is all this leading up to? I QUIT MY JOB!!! Wow, that feels so good to say. I quit my job! Nope, still not old. And I quit my job without another job lined up. At some point I expect to completely freak out that I don’t have a job, but right now I am just basking in the fact I don’t have to go to my old job.
I’ve had a range of reactions to my news – anywhere from “I can’t believe you are being so irresponsible to quit without another job” to “You quit without another job? That is so bada$$”. I do like to think I’m a little bada$$. This was not a decision I made lightly and a lot of thought went into it. Considering how happy I still am, I know this was the right decision.
So what’s next? I’m happy to say the travel part of Travel With Emily is about to go into full swing. I’ve got a couple of small trips before heading to Australia. Yes, Australia!! Followed by one night in Bangkok (or a long layover) on my way to Sweden. Wow! (Any tips on Australia, Sweden or traveling in general are welcome!)
So that’s my big news. Stay tuned for what is next.